And it was nothing but disappointment.
I woke up a little after 5 this morning and decided to go ahead and test. I was still feeling very good about it.
Within minutes I had my answer, negative. Not even a hint that there was hope to hold onto. One line just one damn line!
I don't understand, how, or why? How come I can't get pg? I lost some extra weight (even though my docs said I was fine), I had surgery to make sure I was alright, I did EVERYTHING on schedule during my cycle, I took all of the drugs, I had 3 freaking eggs and yet here I am in tears feeling like the biggest loser. Now for the why. Why is it women can have 10 different baby daddy's and still pop out more kids, why can people who can't even provide for themselves be the ones who get to experience this joy.
I just don't know how much more I can take. Everything was RIGHT THERE. I don't get it. If I can't get pg with 3 eggs than will I ever get pg. I wasn't asking for all three to be babies, I would be more than happy with just one, but no. I get to cry and feel like the loser because my body won't do the damn job it was designed for.
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