Cycle Day 2 10/9/09

I went in today thinking I would just get an u/s like normal, be told to take my clomid, then estrogen, come in on cd12 and go from there. I figured there would be a chance to voice my concern, but I got so much more than I could have hoped for. And for that I am very happy.
Dr. Batres came in for my u/s and started by giving me a big hug and telling me that he was so sorry about what happened and felt so bad that I had to go through such a disappointment. I knew right there he would hear what I had to say and give me some form of hope or options, and I was right.
We started with talking about my Lupus... he wanted to get those tests ran again just to make sure things are looking ok. He was so pleased when I told him that I have been taking my baby asprin daily since we got the news about my Lupus.
He sat and listened as I broke down with confusion and frustration about how I was told I would never have children then get Charlie with no form of help fertility wise and here I am 6 years later and no second child to speak of. I told him that its hard to know we have been trying for 3 1/2 years and nothing to show but heartache. I was up front with him about how I wanted the truth, should we continue trying or just pass the buck and live our lives as a family of three. I didn't want to dance around the issue anymore, I wanted to know! I want to know if there is something to hold onto.
He asked us if we were open to IVF. The answer was yes, but were we absolutely at that point already. And he said no, but that we might, might, want to start talking more in deptly about it and see where we stand with it. Ok fair enough.
He continued with talking to us about no longer taking the clomid and moving onto femera and possibily injections. It took us back for a minute but he explained that with clomid it is very common for it to thin the uterine lining and since I already have a thin lining and Lupus that that could very well be the problem. Even though I take estrogen to help and it does help that it just might not be enough. He explained that the femera does not thin out the lining. Then with adding the injections it will do 2 things for me. 1- produce more eggs, and 2- make my eggs for fertile. Ok I can see that as an option.
He told me if I was willing to be patient for just a little longer he would like to do another SA (sperm analysis) on Tyler and then just do femera this cycle and then we could move on next month to injections. He told me I would need them for 3-4 days and they will cost $75/day... so about $300. Unfortnately our insurance will not cover those.
So, I am just waiting for my labs to come back and then I will start the femera tomorrow and take it through cd7. I will then start testing twice a day with OPKs on cd9 and continue till I either get a positve or I get to cd12 in which case I will go back in for another u/s and lab work.
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Added: They called and my blood work all came back great! WOO HOO. So Tyler will be going in for his SA on Tuesday morning, and then I have my cd12 stuff on the 19th. PLUS... I found out TRICARE should cover the injections... costing us only $9! I have some paperwork I have to get for the doctor and he has to get it authorized, but if we can get it done, that would be SO much better than $300!
I will write more as it happens. Let this cycle begin!!!